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starlight. ([personal profile] ofstarlight) wrote in [community profile] stardustly2017-05-06 11:32 pm
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GENERAL OPEN POST!
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stevegrogers: (reflective)

@matt & bucky.

[personal profile] stevegrogers 2017-06-14 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
Prior to the war, Steve's life consisted mostly of just Bucky but he never felt as if he missed out on anything or longed for more. Bucky made sure they had what they absolutely needed and more than that, Steve felt so cared for. They took on the world together and Steve always believed they would win. For awhile they did until one moment changed everything. Losing Bucky tore apart his entire existence and crashing the plane nearly felt like a release. For seventy or so years, it just so happened to be. Waking up in the new time period, however, unsettled him but eventually there were so many others in his life, something he didn't always know what to do with. It overwhelmed him but encountering Matt Murdock one fateful day clicked some things into place.

He belonged again. He made sense again and what more could he ask for? They didn't really make sense but somehow they did because of how different they were. Little did Steve know they actually had quite a bit in common with their 'hobbies'.

What more could he ask for?

Apparently, the last missing piece of the puzzle. Bucky returning. He survived and the tangibility of him once again changed everything and yet it couldn't. He loved Bucky, yes, but he also loved Matt. It made things murky and he knew he owed Matt an explanation and hopefully to work things out. Without Matt, he wouldn't have survived in the new time period and he couldn't just close the door on it. At the same time, he couldn't ignore Bucky being back and remembering their life together.

"Hey Matty," Steve greeted as he walked into their apartment, a rather new development and one which oddly took a lot of convincing. Did he snore in his sleep or something? "I got us dinner." He dropped the take out bags on the counter, gripping loosely on the edging. "We should - probably - talk about -" He let out a sigh. "I wanted to before but I know you've been really busy with that case of yours. A lot of late nights huh?" Again, little did Steve know. "Bucky - he - you mean so much to me, Matt. Our life together is so important to me but I can't lie about Bucky not meaning anything. Before this - before I ended up here, Bucky was my life. Both of you mean so much to me and I don't really know what to do with it - about it. I don't want to hurt either of you."
takesabeating: (pic#11420626)

[personal profile] takesabeating 2017-06-14 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
Some days, Matt wonders if he took too hard a blow to the head and is really in a coma having the most incredible dream. His life took such an unexpected turn when Steve Rogers walked into it, and despite the added complications, things are good. Better than he deserves. And he knows he should just tell Steve his secret, that he's only making things inevitably worse by drawing it out, but every time he considers doing it, he chickens out. What if Steve gets angry, or maybe even worse, tries to put an end to his work as Daredevil? It's not a risk he's ready to take.

Besides, lately he's had a bigger issue on his mind. Bucky's return. The minute he heard that the man who was the Winter Soldier had been brought into the fold, he knew everything was heading toward this conversation. After all, Bucky and Steve have history, and it's obvious every single time Steve mentions his oldest friend that it's the kind of history that you don't just move on from.

"Yeah. It's a big case." That particular lie probably won't make much difference now, will it? Breathing slowly through his nose, Matt fixes a quiet smile on his face and walks over to stand next to the other man. "It's okay, Steve. I understand. More than anything in the world, I want you to be happy."
stevegrogers: (wistful)

[personal profile] stevegrogers 2017-06-14 03:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Complication filtered through all aspects of his life but he needed to at least ease and clear up one part. The romantic part meant so much to him and acted like something of a safe haven against everything else. There were a lot of transitions taking place but the Avengers could handle it. They always handled it. At least, the big bads of the world were currently quiet and it allowed him to have a moment to breathe and think. To consider what needed to be done.

Reaching out for Matt, he cupped his cheek for a moment. "I want you to be happy too, Matty. That means a lot to me." He looked down, trying to gather his thoughts. "Buck, he - needs me. He was always there for me when we were growing up and I can't just -" Shaking his head, he shifted to be able to unload the bags of food. It gave him something to do with his hands and nervous energy.

"I care about you both. Both of you -" He broke off with a deep sigh. "I wish we could - I don't know - all be together. Do people even do that?" If Bucky and Matt even got along but shouldn't they? Steve did and they both cared about him. It might not work out that way, though. Tony probably would have been proud Steve even considered it a possibility. It sounded like something the man would indulge in. "But like - a committed thing? Not just -" A sex thing or something else equally as depraved.

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icycold: (50)

Side Conversation with Bucky and Matt

[personal profile] icycold 2017-06-14 02:14 pm (UTC)(link)
By the time Steve was able to catch Bucky and bring him back to the Avengers, he felt the weight of his crimes over the past decades bear down on his shoulders. To top that off, his memory was hazy at best. He did eventually remember Steve, some of their time together growing up, and the love they felt for one another.

The fact that Steve still wanted him despite the monster he'd become left Bucky humbled beyond belief. There was one issue, however; he'd fallen in love with someone else in the meanwhile. He was a blind lawyer named Matt Murdock, and one sight of his handsome face and how well put-together he was in that suit made Bucky feel a degree of jealousy.

Not that he had any right to feel jealous. It had been so many decades... and he'd done so many awful crimes. The fact that Steve and the others are even willing to give him a chance is more than he ever deserved.

And now he had the opportunity to speak with Matt while Steve 'casually' went to the tower for a sudden meeting.

Bucky sat on one of the couches in the otherwise empty office. He felt a bit nervous, but also glad that Matt, in his well-tended attire, with his done hair and beard, couldn't see Bucky's lack of shaving, long hair and casual attire. Most of all, he was glad that Matt couldn't see his metal arm, covered by his long-sleeved shirt as it was.

"Uh. So. You and Steve."
takesabeating: (pic#11420579)

[personal profile] takesabeating 2017-06-14 02:34 pm (UTC)(link)
The minute he realized he and Bucky were going to be alone, Matt knew what they'd be talking about. It's only natural, after all. If their positions were reversed, Matt would want to know everything he could. Hell, he wants that now, although he has an advantage: a great deal of James Barnes' history is public knowledge, and what isn't still filters to him through Steve.

None of that makes it any easier to fill the awkward silence that follows those few simple words.

"Yeah." He licks at his lower lip, fidgeting a little with his cane between his hands. Although this isn't the first time the two men have met, it is the first time they've really had the opportunity for a private conversation. "I get that reaction a lot. Guess I'm, uh, not what most people would expect someone like him to be with."
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[personal profile] icycold 2017-06-14 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Bucky's eyes raise at the comment, not at all what he expects. Is it because of his blindness? That seems... petty. It must be because he doesn't participate with the Avengers or other spy organizations. If he'd been asked from the start, knowing nothing else, Bucky might have assumed that Steve was involved with Thor or Black Widow.

But Matt is very attractive, has an impressive profession, and knows how to keep himself nice and together. Bucky doesn't think he can really manage any of those things right now.

"Don't be ridiculous," he starts to wave a hand dismissively, then remembers not to. "Steve's a person too. A great person, but he's allowed to like whoever he likes."

Finding out the two have moved in together makes everything all the worse. Bucky hates this jealousy, hates the way it makes him hate Matt despite his own words.

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stevegrogers: (determined)

side convo ii. @bucky and steve.

[personal profile] stevegrogers 2017-06-15 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Shifting his weight between his feet back and forth a few times, Steve looked up the moment he heard Bucky approach. A smile lit up his face despite the slight reservations he felt churning around inside of him. He couldn't predict how Bucky would react and it worried him. What if it upset Bucky? Letting out a breath, he gestured forward for Bucky to take a seat on the couch beside him.

"Hey Buck. How was your day? Good session?" The doctors and therapists seemed really hopeful lately and it made Steve feel a teeny bit better. It wouldn't give Bucky back the life he lost but at least he would be able to form something new for himself.

There were so many things he wanted to say but didn't really know how to put everything into words. "There's something about Matt I wanted to talk to you about. I mean it's about both of you. Kind of about all three of us." Way to make sense, Rogers.
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[personal profile] icycold 2017-06-15 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Ever since Steve found him and brought him back to the Avengers Tower, most of Bucky's life consisted of seeing various doctors to try and treat his mind, undo his conditioning, and work on his PTSD. None of it was easy and none of it was fun, but he went through it, mostly for Steve. As time went on, however, he began to do it for himself as well.

Bucky wanted to get better rather than running away from what he'd done, even if that meant a massive trial to come in the future. He wanted to live as independently as possible, and once Matt Murdock took on his case, he was able to gain enough cash to move into Steve's old place and start to live by himself.

That wasn't easy either as he wasn't used to independence. It took a lot to take care of himself, and the nightmares... they were ever present. Luckily he had Steve around to help him, and a few of the Avengers, such as Sam, became his friends. That was more than he could remember having before.

"Yeah, good day. I should be able to stay in the apartment for now."

The doctors were feeling increasingly optimistic about him, which helped his odds about being able to remain living alone. Therefore, Bucky was feeling more satisfied than usual when he saw Steve, offering a smile of his own. That was, until he mentioned Matt. Matt and him? All three of them? What?

"I think you'll have to be a bit more specific, Steve."

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icycold: (37)

Everyone talks

[personal profile] icycold 2017-06-23 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Steve had given him the address where to meet him and Matt after his final session that evening. It was a top apartment in Hell's Kitchen. He took a bus to get there, careful to wear a coat and glove over his metal arm, and then stepped out onto the street in front of the front of the place.

Soon he had taken the elevator to the top and knocked on the door. Matt let him in, leaving all of them in the awkward situation of being together, knowing about the threeway relationship without all have spoken about it.

Bucky kept looking to Steve as if for help. He knew he was supposed to be able to trust Matt just as much, but at the moment it was difficult to imagine; the two barely knew each other. He wanted Steve to start the conversation, or even Matt. Anybody but himself.
takesabeating: (pic#11420566)

[personal profile] takesabeating 2017-06-23 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Matt isn't exactly comfortable himself, but he knows it has to be even worse for Bucky. Doing his best to be a good host, he offers the man a beer or water from the fridge, and urges everyone to grab a seat in the little living room area. For himself, he sits in one of the armchairs, leaning forward a little with his elbows on his knees.

"I'm going to apologize up front if I come off too much like a lawyer here, but I've been thinking about this. And it seems to me that the best way to avoid any confusion or misunderstandings is for Steve to lay out exactly what he wants. And for Bucky and myself to be honest about what we are or aren't willing to agree to."

It sounds cold and clinical, but this is a situation ripe for disaster. He wants to be sure they all understand each other going in.

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brilliantscientist: (Default)

@samantha wilson.

[personal profile] brilliantscientist 2017-06-24 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ sliding down until she landed on the ground, Gwen carefully leaned against the nearby brick wall. Samantha Wilson - aka: Captain America - aka b: dreamy as anything. a lady out of time and able to make any man succumb to their knees. basically, a woman after her own heart. she preferred to think of herself as the same but she had an unfair advantage of knocking others off their feet.

hello, web slinging prowess. ]


Well, well, what's Cap doing in my neck of the woods? Anything I can help with? It'll only cost you a pizza.

Wait!

Two pizzas. I recently raised my rates. Economy, you know. Hitting us all.
samerica: (07)

[personal profile] samerica 2017-06-24 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
You just can't stop those one-liners, can you?

[Even after decades lost in time and space, Sam's voice still carries a touch of a Southern drawl. You can take a girl out of the South, but you can't take the South out of the girl.

(Which might explain why she knows where all the best soul food restaurants in New York are, and why she can make a mean sweet tea.)

Sam pushes her goggles up on her forehead. The shield's slung over her back; whatever she's doing, it hasn't involved any trouble.]


Keeping an eye on things, is all. Making sure there aren't any more giant lizards around.

[Getting out of an apartment that's too damn small when you have to share it with a teenage boy.]

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hashtagtwinning: (i could stay there)

@veronica ; text ; post-s1

[personal profile] hashtagtwinning 2017-07-06 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks for everything, I guess.

Take care of the River Vixens and my HBIC shirt. I'm staying with Josie right now.

Everything is fine. :)


[ Okay, Cheryl. Neglect to mention the fact that you burned your house down. That's fine. ]
Edited 2017-07-06 02:53 (UTC)
wreckshavoc: (hurt)

[personal profile] wreckshavoc 2017-07-06 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Lying will not help anything, Cheryl.

You are not fine! You burned down your house!

Are you staying with Josie permanently? If not, you can move in here with me.

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stevegrogers: (ready for action)

@starkingenuity | continued.

[personal profile] stevegrogers 2017-07-27 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ x ]


While Steve retained the repression from his era, there were a very things he didn't necessarily pick up on. For one thing, he had been practically in love with Bucky, despite how wrong it felt. Not only because of the whole 'best friend' thing but also due to the same sex thing. It went against what they were taught, especially for Steve being Catholic and how strict the notions were within the religion. But they also lived in a district where there were 'areas' devoted to being 'open' and yourself. So, while it surprised Steve to see the progress when he first arrived, it also felt like a relief. It meant the feelings he had inside actually mattered and weren't just wrong and sinful. While he didn't feel the same for Bucky any longer, his eyes still turned towards both men and women. Bisexuality happened to actually be a thing! It made Steve feel apart of something.

With Tony, his brazen ways he spoke of intimacy troubled him far more than the actual acts he described. Okay, no, sometimes those made him wide eye too. The man did not have any sort of discretion and he never knew how to cope with it. In his time, people were more hidden with their exploits and kept things more prim and proper on the outside.

"So, you admit you were actually waiting for me," Steve responded with a smirk, moving towards the bed to sit down on one side of it. He slid off his shoes before settling in. The comfort surrounded him and he let out a tired sigh.

He looked over at Tony with a shake of his head. "Would it even matter?" He shifted until he could pull at Tony to bring him into his arms.
starkingenuity: (bed - nightmares sleep)

Re: @starkingenuity | continued.

[personal profile] starkingenuity 2017-07-27 11:23 am (UTC)(link)
[I was hoping you'd reply. I was really digging out thread.]

Though he was no boys out, Tony tried to be prepared for everything. Sometimes he was more capable than others and sometimes he just I flipped his safety nets and free fell into places he really didn't belong. This was probably one of those places, in bed in a foreign country with a former friend and potential enemy. Then again, that was par for the course. At least neither of them had their clothing off, but the moment Steve pulled him back, Tony could no longer claim not to be in a compromising position.

"Easy does it George," he referenced, Steinbeck likely one of those authors that Steve hadn't gotten to because he'd been in school way before the author wrote much less became a mandatory part of American curriculum for fifteen year olds. That powerful arm around him could have been frightening, but Tony didn't take it as that, his breath momentarily held as Stevd pressed firmly against his back. He made a really good big spoon, he thought to himself, the blond's breath stirring wisps of hair around his ears.

He did not speak to having waited for Steve because it didn't matter. They both knew he had waited. And long enough for his tea to get cold. He probably would have waited all day if he had to.

Amber eyes closed. His breathing evened.

"You've done a lot of apologizing and threatening to turn yourself in. But you said you wanted to talk about us." Big us. All capital letters US. "Or is that an after nap time if you're still around and haven't crushed me accidentally in my sleep sort of discussion."

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backalleywars: (sassy)

@bucky.

[personal profile] backalleywars 2017-08-01 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
Stop staring at me. I can see ya, you know.
I want to sit on the fire escape and it's not that hot out.
sidecars: (pic#9935289)

[personal profile] sidecars 2017-08-01 06:54 am (UTC)(link)
uhhhhh excuse you pal
I dont stare
in fact who is this?


[ Bucky is totally making faces now. You see this, punk? Bleeh pbbft! ]

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stevegrogers: (displeased)

@bucky (readytocomply) | post cw.

[personal profile] stevegrogers 2017-08-02 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Even when he had nothing, he had Bucky Barnes.

The one person who really saw him and looked beyond just the surface to navigate what rested beneath. Together, they took on the world and he knew without a doubt he wouldn't have made it without his other half. Somewhere along the line they became so much more to one another. They became everything but they never had it easy and the war positively tore them apart.

With losing Bucky, Steve lost himself too. Oh, others tried to help but when he woke up in the new era seventy odd years later, history very conveniently left out his true relationship with Bucky. Things were a lot more tolerate but obviously it would tarnish the legacy to have Captain America be anything other than pure and straight.

Yet another way to keep him from feeling he fit in but he dedicated himself to the cause and never looked back.

Until the Winter Soldier appeared.

Bucky

And even though they made it past even more darkness together, Bucky only remembered their friendship. It felt like losing himself all over again but he kept it quiet and tried to not feel constantly pained by it all. He had Bucky back at least and his recovery mattered far more. The process had been a difficult one but they managed to make it to the point of being apart of the Avengers together. Their records cleared along with the others. They were more constantly monitored but Steve tried to look past it.

Currently, the other Avengers were having a family dinner to bond with one another but Steve felt far too sad to join in. Instead, he kept himself to his bedroom, situated on the window seat to sketch the birds flying around and the leaves blowing on the trees. ]
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[personal profile] readytocomply 2017-08-06 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
[At first, Bucky's mind came back to him in lengthily spread out bursts. A few new ones, here and there, triggered by a scent or a sound, but never a complete memory. He could remember the way his mom's hair smelled (lemons) or the sound of his father's voice, but never the two of them together. Never the three of them doing anything. Fragments, bits and pieces as his body tried to heal and fix what Hydra had done to him.

Steve helped. He was the only person who he hadn't forgotten, not completely. Every time they'd have to wipe him clean again because blond hair and blue eyes with a bit of green would come back to him. The first time he remembers something, a full memory, was after Steve had come back into his life. Eventually, he remembers some of his family but mostly Steve's Ma and Steve, always Steve. Sometimes, he thinks he's missing something, but he chalks that up to the usual - his mind isn't what it used to be, he'll get there someday.

Whenever he brings it up, Steve brushes it off. He doesn't want to hurt Steve anymore than he already has, so he doesn't say anything after the first few times. When Steve comes out of his shower one night, Bucky sitting on the bed waiting to talk to him, he swallows down that hot spike of attraction and arousal, shoves it down deep with the feelings that he might like Steve as more than a friend.

That's not who they are, Steve would've told him, would've said. It never goes away but there's no memory to back it up so he figures it's new. Bucky's allowing himself to like whoever he wants and it's no surprise that it'd be the only person he really trusts. He vows never to tell him.

They're part of the Avengers now and it's dinner night. A way to bond and get closer. Bucky had been on his way down to meet everyone when the scent of lasagna had wafted up, triggering a memory. Steve, cooking dinner for Bucky, which wasn't unusual. They'd eaten, and Bucky had sat on their thread-bare couch, waiting for Steve to join him when - he straddles his lap, kisses him and whispers that he loves him. Bucky's frozen in the middle of the hallway, a few feet from the elevator, when it all comes rushing back. That's all it takes, one time, one memory of Steve in his hands and the taste of his lips for years worth of memory to return.

That's all it takes for hurt to course through him, pain at the rejection he's sure Steve's given him for not saying anything. He goes down to find him, only to hear he's skipped out on the night, and Bucky's not having any of that. Telling the others not to expect them for supper, he gets to Steve's room fast, pushing the door open and slamming it behind him.]


What the hell is your problem, Rogers?

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@matt (takesabeating).

[personal profile] jamesbbarnes 2017-08-04 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
Being on the run felt like second nature after doing so for the past two years, always looking over his shoulder and trying to stay out of sight as much as possible to keep underneath the radar. A rather easy task all things considered for a ghost story but it also morphed things around in his already troubled mind. It made things grotesque and eventually the running led him back to where it all began. A flight towards something familiar but as he moved through New York, nothing called to him. Nothing eased his weary bones.

Stepping in front of a rather run down looking building, Bucky slipped inside, quickly evaluating the space. Very shabby but discreet which worked for him. Slumping against one of the walls, he slid down until he hit the floor. He pulled his knees up to his chest, backpack still clicked into place around him in case he needed to run in a hurry. He felt so tired, though, even with the version of the serum he received. But he had been pushing himself for the past two years and kind of expected to hit a breaking point.

Groaning softly, he rested his head against his upturned knees and tried to remember how it felt like to just breathe.
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[personal profile] takesabeating 2017-08-04 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
Ever since Foggy packed up and severed their partnership, not to mention their entire friendship, it feels like Matt is just barely keeping his head above water. Between the struggle to keep up with enough clients to pay the bills, and almost nightly patrols through the Kitchen, he's worn thin. Something has to give sooner or later, and chances are good it'll be either his body or his sanity, but Matt can't stop pushing himself. There's just too much at stake.

At least having the office all to himself means he can come and go at any hour he pleases, without having to explain his schedule. He's not sure he'll ever get used to how empty the place feels, though. Even his footsteps on the stairs seem to echo more than they used to.

He's reaching for the doorknob when he realizes that the harsh breathing and fast heartbeat are coming from just a few feet away. On the other side of that door. Folding his cane into a club, he tucks his glasses into his breast pocket and takes a steadying breath, then opens the door.

"If you're a thief, you picked a lousy place rob."

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@frank

[personal profile] herlead 2017-09-09 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Lies coated Karen's life, weaving in and out like sticky spider webs but before she lost herself in them, she rushed out into the night without any true destination. Eventually, she ended up at Frank's old house, gazing up at the flames licking at the air. The heat rushed along her face as she gasped, wondering quickly at the handiwork. Frank? Someone else? Either way, so many lost memories.

Taking a step closer, she looked around her, trying to catch sight of Frank. He tended to be not too far behind her lately, nearly like a shadow. ]


Frank!
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[personal profile] penals 2017-09-10 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ It was supposed to be done quick, a righteous path of letting Frank Castle flicker away in a cloud of smoke. He'd barely turned to watch the wood burn away, to let the crackle of the sparks keep him around. It wouldn't — it was a step back from what he was really meant for, what he was aimed to do.

Only, even now, one weakness flickered bright.

She shouts out his name without a damn filter, and in moments, he's stepping behind her to grasp her arm and guide her into the bushes, out of sight from the open street. So much for departing quickly, for leaving it all behind. ]


What are you doing?

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[personal profile] usingthelaw 2017-09-09 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
A hollow feeling crept into Foggy as he stepped into the office with a frown, arm aching unpleasantly from each and every movement but he pushed past it. Usually, he always kept things together and pressed forward but not this time. Things crashed too violently and he needed to move on to keep his own sanity. Matt curled too many lies around him this time and let him down like never before. To think, he really believed at one point Matt would choose him and what they built together.

Memories scattered as he moved forward and tried to pack the rest of his things. He loved Matt but the feelings weren't returned strongly enough.