[The destruction at Alexandria isn't the worst she's seen it. It isn't good, but it could be worse. Will be worse. The thought comes unbidden, and yet she feels the truth of it down to the hollows of her bones. It's the way things are now. The way the world works. And hearing about what Negan and the saviors (and isn't that title about as ironic as it gets?) had done to Abraham, to Glenn -- her choice has been made.
She's tried staying out of all of it. Isolating herself. Because at the core, she is poison and it's something she has struggled to come to terms with over the last few weeks at the Kingdom. She's not sure she ever will. Ever can.
It doesn't matter.
Carol's felt helpless, hopeless for so long now despite her own capabilities, that she's not sure she's going to get past it, and that doesn't matter either. What matters is how she responds, and hiding from it isn't going to make it all go away. She's back, in it for the long haul. Because it's what she has to do.
She spends some time checking on a few of the people from both Alexandria and the Kingdom, but she doesn't spot any of the individuals she most needs to see. She asks around, discovers that Michonne had been pretty badly injured, and follows Tara's direction to where the woman is recovering. She finds Rick there beside her bed, holding her hand, and she pauses in the doorway, silent. Still.]
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She's tried staying out of all of it. Isolating herself. Because at the core, she is poison and it's something she has struggled to come to terms with over the last few weeks at the Kingdom. She's not sure she ever will. Ever can.
It doesn't matter.
Carol's felt helpless, hopeless for so long now despite her own capabilities, that she's not sure she's going to get past it, and that doesn't matter either. What matters is how she responds, and hiding from it isn't going to make it all go away. She's back, in it for the long haul. Because it's what she has to do.
She spends some time checking on a few of the people from both Alexandria and the Kingdom, but she doesn't spot any of the individuals she most needs to see. She asks around, discovers that Michonne had been pretty badly injured, and follows Tara's direction to where the woman is recovering. She finds Rick there beside her bed, holding her hand, and she pauses in the doorway, silent. Still.]