[ instead of feeling relieved, neve just feels sad. he doesn't know how to deal with this. he doesn't want kai to go, nor would he want him to feel used. but the mere act of having let kai stay in his bed meant kai was tainted in a way, now. because the queen might find out. and maybe she'd make him a target.
even knowing that, what neve wants is to see kai a little longer. ]
You're not staying? [ his breathing hitches. he feels terrible enough about himself and about doing this when it puts kai in danger and now by clearly not knowing how to keep handling this situation he feels for a moment certain that he's about to have some sort of break down.
he curls the hand hidden from kai into a fist, digging his nails into his palm. ]
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even knowing that, what neve wants is to see kai a little longer. ]
You're not staying? [ his breathing hitches. he feels terrible enough about himself and about doing this when it puts kai in danger and now by clearly not knowing how to keep handling this situation he feels for a moment certain that he's about to have some sort of break down.
he curls the hand hidden from kai into a fist, digging his nails into his palm. ]
Kai... I'm sorry.