[It wasn't her intention to make him feel self conscious, and while Steve certainly doesn't project his discomfort loudly or obviously, she gets the sense of it anyway from his body language and his tone of voice. Just a hint here or there to calm her heart.
Reaching out, she grasps his hand before it hits his lap and holds it tight. She doesn't want him to regret telling her, and she doesn't want him to think that she has a problem with this at all.]
No, it's not too weird for me, that's not it at all.
[She doesn't want this to be a big thing, or make him feel worse.]
I just...[How does she even phrase this? Every concern she has is answered by something he said earlier. She means something to him, which means that he probably doesn't regret his first time was with her. It was special to him, which means that it's not as if it wasn't special for him at all for a first time...and yet--] If I hadn't been impaired, if I had known, I would have taken my time making it special for you. Not that it wasn't but I would have given you the first time that I sometimes wish I'd waited for.
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Reaching out, she grasps his hand before it hits his lap and holds it tight. She doesn't want him to regret telling her, and she doesn't want him to think that she has a problem with this at all.]
No, it's not too weird for me, that's not it at all.
[She doesn't want this to be a big thing, or make him feel worse.]
I just...[How does she even phrase this? Every concern she has is answered by something he said earlier. She means something to him, which means that he probably doesn't regret his first time was with her. It was special to him, which means that it's not as if it wasn't special for him at all for a first time...and yet--] If I hadn't been impaired, if I had known, I would have taken my time making it special for you. Not that it wasn't but I would have given you the first time that I sometimes wish I'd waited for.