[ The way Kai spoke, so confident and willing, already sounding like Myung's happiness was all he wanted, well. It makes a blush rise up Myung's cheeks, warm and somehow, somehow, kinda content. ]
[ reaching out to brush his fingers along myung's cheeks, he gave a nod of his head. ]
I would be happy if you were happy. I think you would be happy if I'm happy. It would be kind of a cycle! A circle. We'll figure all that stuff out. My - life will be different now on the ground. I'll have to - figure things out.
[ kai would make sure myung did not hate himself. not for this; not for anything at all. he wanted so much for myung to find all the ways to love himself.
they could learn it together. ]
The great thing about life is things are always changing! I'm excited about what is in store for us. Don't think you're taking me away...you're giving me so much more, Myung. You're giving me a life that I'll get to pick.
[ he looked down for a moment. ] Otherwise, I would have been someone's trophy to parade around. The meremen aren't - aren't the nicest and that would have been my arrangement.
[ It would take time. It would take so much time for Myung to get used to it, to make sense of the fact that this was it. That he was actually, for real, married, and that there was no way out. For now, he was busier enjoying Kai's company, learning to know him, but it didn't quite feel real, just yet. Maybe it would never. ]
I definitely - whatever you expected it to be, it won't be that. We're in this together, right? 50/50, okay? We're equals. It's not just about me. I want you to tell me what you want.
[ the words had him lighting up, a kind of surprised but very pleased look working over his face. he wanted more than he could properly put into words at the moment. things he did not have a name for yet but maybe would in time. ]
Thank you, Myung. I really appreciate it and I want you to always be open with me! If you ever want or don't want something, I'd like to know.
Yeah. I'll tell you. But just so you know, this is all new to me, too. I can't promise I won't freak out again, because I will. But I'll still do my best and - talk to you.
[ Because Kai had done an amazing job at bringing him down from his panic earlier, so simply, and somehow, Myung had a feeling he'd be able to again. ]
[ likely, they would both freak out while attempting to adjust to things but it would be worth it. kai found it completely worth it and wanted myung to feel wanted and special. if he could manage it, he knew everything else would fall into place. effort mattered at the end of it all. ]
That's all I ask. If we close down on each other or don't even try, this won't work out.... [ which would be terrible given they couldn't end it. well, unless he died but even then myung would feel lost trying to be with anyone else. ]
We can slowly get to know each other. One step at a time. I know some things here about you already!
[ Myung nodded. Kai made sense, even if nothing else did. But Myung could already feel it, in his stomach, how Kai seemed to have a calming, reassuring effect on him. He felt good, here, with Kai by his side.
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I think I - I'd like you to be happy, too.
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I would be happy if you were happy. I think you would be happy if I'm happy. It would be kind of a cycle! A circle. We'll figure all that stuff out. My - life will be different now on the ground. I'll have to - figure things out.
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[ Myung, always disrupting plans. He'd probably hate himself for this, at some point. ]
We can make sure that, wherever we end up, there's water close. Yeah?
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they could learn it together. ]
The great thing about life is things are always changing! I'm excited about what is in store for us. Don't think you're taking me away...you're giving me so much more, Myung. You're giving me a life that I'll get to pick.
[ he looked down for a moment. ] Otherwise, I would have been someone's trophy to parade around. The meremen aren't - aren't the nicest and that would have been my arrangement.
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I definitely - whatever you expected it to be, it won't be that. We're in this together, right? 50/50, okay? We're equals. It's not just about me. I want you to tell me what you want.
[ Even right now. ]
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Thank you, Myung. I really appreciate it and I want you to always be open with me! If you ever want or don't want something, I'd like to know.
This is all - new to me. Being with someone.
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Yeah. I'll tell you. But just so you know, this is all new to me, too. I can't promise I won't freak out again, because I will. But I'll still do my best and - talk to you.
[ Because Kai had done an amazing job at bringing him down from his panic earlier, so simply, and somehow, Myung had a feeling he'd be able to again. ]
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That's all I ask. If we close down on each other or don't even try, this won't work out.... [ which would be terrible given they couldn't end it. well, unless he died but even then myung would feel lost trying to be with anyone else. ]
We can slowly get to know each other. One step at a time. I know some things here about you already!
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He felt like they would be okay. ]
One step at a time. Sounds good to me.