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[ The first laugh in days but Neve tended to make him feel pretty really easily just with his general presence and sense of self.

What did he ever do to deserve him? ]

I could shower here if you can't stand to smell me. But yeah. Pack territory dispute and they wanted me to draw the boundary lines. It's really exhausting and I went through six candles in two days.

Edited 2018-01-18 04:35 (UTC)

[ that sounds complicated and exhausting. ]

You worked hard. [ he admires that in a person... but now kai must be tired. yet he's here? neve both loves and hates the way that makes his heart beat a little faster. to think kai might be exhausted but still wanted to see him. ]

You can take a shower if you want. I have clean towels. [ he opens his mouth to keep going, then trips on his words, looking away, as if embarrassed. ] I think you — you're fine. Smell wise.

[ you smell good, kai. ]

Someone has to do it. My magic isn't as easy as a witch but none of them will work with werewolves.

[ He gave a slighly tired smile, leaning against the wall to look at Neve. Why would he be embarrassed mentioning towels?

Oh. OH. ]

Do you - think I smell good?

[ Was he trying to flirt? Maybe. MAYBE. ]

[ he had questions about magic and werewolves and witches, but he's flustered. he's been #caught, hasn't he. neve cleared his throat, then pursed his lips. ]

Didn't say that. [ pause. he can't be flat out denying it... ] You don't smell that bad, that's all.

[ now his fluster almost looks pouty. he's not looking right at kai, either. ]

[ he could not say why he felt more confident the more flustered neve became. It just seemed to be a thing so with a smirk, he shifted a little closer before he lost his nerve to. Placing a hand on neve's arm. ]

I think I might take a shower. I'll need to borrow something of yours to change into. If that's okay?

[ his clothes were pretty dirty after his two day never ending journey. ]

[ neve might flip the table on you later, kai! for now, he's only getting more visibly affected by... everything.

he looked down at kai's hand, then looking back to him, nodded slowly. it made sense, he did look dirty, but he realises now what this means. kai in his shower. naked in his home. using one of his towels. wearing some of his clothes. he doesn't understand why that makes him feel... how does he feel? he loves the idea, in a very specific and special way. ]

Yes, okay. [ more than okay, but he's not about to admit that when his feelings are currently a mess. ] Make yourself comfortable, I'll go get something for you to wear and a towel.

[ Kai quickly learned his mistake as he felt the heat from Neve's arm against his palm. It settled thickly over him and made him - want to press closer. A feeling he generally never felt but then again he rarely had the opportunity or the drive to explore someone else. But he wanted to explore everything with Neve, uncover all the hidden away mysteries.

He also kind of really liked the idea of being in his clothes. ]

Okay. That - sounds good.

[ Why did his voice sound so raspy for? Taking a few steps back, he tried to not blush. ]

[ neve didn't usually get so flustered. keeping his cool was kind of his thing.

and yet... something about kai... the way his voice sounded... seeing him and texting him was always fun, but there was a sort of electricity since their last few conversations... he shook it off for now, pursing his lips before awkwardly pointing to the hallway toward his room to indicate he was just going to dash there real quick. ]

Be right back.

[ As they stepped back from each other, Kai tried to calm himself down. Seriously, why did Neve have to get to him so easily?

He gave a nod of his head, running his hand through his hair, messing it up even more. He felt a little stupid he didn't want to be without Neve's presence. Usually, he never felt like that. ]

Okay.

[ He gave a smile, walking over to grab for a glass and fill it with water. ]

[ it's hard staring his wardrobe in the face and trying to decide which clothes would be less lethal for him to see kai in. the answer is: none. so instead he goes for comfort. some warm pants he usually wears to relax and a nice soft t-shirt. that should do, right?

oh. and underwear. he grabs one of those too while forcing himself not to think about it at all, grabs a towel, and stops by the bathroom to leave everything on the counter.

then he goes to face kai again.

turns out to be wrong, once he sees kai again. he'll have to do some breathing exercises so he doesn't end up flustered every second kai is here. ]

I left it in the bathroom. Down the hall.

[ in the space between their departures from one another, Kai downed three glasses of water to try and find some semblance of control again. He didn't want to ruin what they had or make things uncomfortable because he felt things. He didn't really know all he felt either.

Eyes lingering on Neve for a moment, he gave a nod of his head. ]

Thank you, marshmallow. I'll be back soon.

[ talk about needing a cold shower. Letting out a breath, he headed into the bathroom and slipped into the shower once he had everything set.

Mistake. Mistake. ]

[ the nickname made him smile.

he couldn't believe it did, but it did.

when kai disappeared into the bathroom, neve rushed to get himself a glass of water too. he cleaned kai's, enjoying cleaning to relax, but it didn't work as effectively as usual.

because kai was in his shower. and he had to try very, very hard not to think about that. usually he had self control, but this felt like a magnet his thoughts couldn't resist. once done washing the glasses, he wiped them dry and kept them on the counter in case they would want to eat more.

then he eyed the couch. should they sit there? or at his kitchen table? or did kai want to sleep? would he sleep in neve's bed?

oh, god. ]

[ if he thought the shower might help, he really thought wrong. it only made his mind to drift towards neve being with him and - no - he needed to keep his mind on more innocent topics.

after washing off and his hair, he climbed out of the shower and dried off. eyeing the clothes before he pulled them on. ]

Hey, Neve.

[ He voiced from the doorway of the kitchen. ]

Thanks for this. I feel better now.

[ with a sleepy smile, he moved forward. ] Do you - maybe want to -

[ it was the first time neve was ever this close to someone in so long. to see kai in his clothes was an entirely new feeling, too, one that left him confused. he usually knew just what he was feeling. but this... it was like a hot spike of something. it felt intimate to share clothes and it felt significant to witness. ]

No problem. [ coolly. on the inside, he was a lot less cool, but that was okay.

neve moved closer, looking kind of adorable, and neve looked at him quizzically. for some reason his mind skipped ahead about ten steps as kai started to ask him something. ]

I...want to what?

[ when it came to being close to others, Kai didn't have any experience with it so everything with neve felt even more significant. his heart began to pound in his chest harder, the closer he moved to neve. how could he already feel so much and they hadn't even really touched?

blushing, he looked off to the side, feeling more and more caught up. why did he even attempt to ask?

he just felt surrounded by neve and only wanted more. ]

You - do you want - can we lay down together?

[ there, for better or worse, he asked. ]

[ oh.

yes. neve wants that very much, actually. even if it feels dangerous. like he'll do something... that will change everything. he doesn't want to change things between them. but more than that, the closer they get the more danger there is.

nodding, neve reaches out, very gently. his fingertips touch kai's wrist, then curl there. touching him is like feeling a spark. being with kai feels like that over all. sparks making him come alive again, after so very long. ]

Okay. [ without taking his eyes off of him, he starts to tug him along toward the bedroom. ]

[ the touch is electrified and Kai needed to use all his willpower to not gasp outright. tingles raced up and down his skin from the simple contact so how would more contact feel? well, he couldn't assume neve would curl up with him in bed.

in bed.

neve's bed. where he slept and - no, another thought he needed to not have. he let neve tug him towards the bedroom, his heart right in his throat. ]

I like your place.

[ wait, did that sound like flirting? ]

[ neve looks around as if seeing his place for the first time. he hadn't thought about this part much. but it's true it's a reflection of him: everything looks sleek and ordered, but it's not cold or bland. there are colors, and it's cozy. ]

Thanks... [ his bed is a sight. there's a pile of pillows on it. it's made, but it manages to look messy, or as if it was ready to welcome someone throwing themselves on it.

neve does spend a lot of time lounging around. ]

My bed is my favorite place here. [ he doesn't know why he says that. he hardly shares things about himself but with kai it seems to slip out.

he lets him go, only to gesture toward the bed. he's trying to keep casual. not thinking about getting into bed with kai but rather the logistics of it. ]

Do you have a favorite side?

[ For Kai, he treasured each and every wayward comment Neve spoke to him, piecing more things about him together. Neve would never be called an open book or easy to get to know bit Kai didn't mind working a little doe it. He found Neve worth it and sometimes he hid behind things too.

He tried to not frown when Neve let go of him, gazing at the bed as if in deep thought.

Right. Yes. They would actually need to get into bed. He would be in bed with Neve. ]

Usually, the closest to a window or a door.

[ For reasons he didn't usually talk about. ]

I really love pillows and fuzzy blankets.

[ neve looked at kai for a moment, but said nothing. it was a comment that was clearly not going to come with an explanation, and he wasn't about to require one. he knew what it was like, to skirt around the truth, to say the relevant parts of things only.

he respected it.

but it made his heart ache a little. ]

Then you can have the side closest to the door. And most of the pillows.

[ he takes a seat on the bed then, watching kai closely. ]

[ one day, Kai would explain and put more out there but he preferred to maintain the illusion he had everything together. it just made sense and everything else could be buried deeply.

watching neve, he felt yet another flutter in his chest. how could one person be so beautiful and alluring? he would never survive this and would likely make a full of himself.

he fought back a yawn as he sat down on the other side of the bed. ]

Any habits I should know? Do you snore, drool, talk in your sleep?

[ neve's lips tugged into a tight smile, and he shook his head as he tugged the comforter to get beneath it. ]

I'm a perfect bed partner.

[ oh. uh. he looked away from kai, pretending to fix a pillow behind him as he spoke. cool, calm and collected was apparently impossible with kai around. ]

For sleep, [ he clarified, acting as non flustered as he possibly could. ]

[ I'm a perfect bed partner. Seriously?

What did he do to deserve this torment and frustration? Coming over so tired probably wasn't the greatest idea either but he had missed Kai the last couple of days.

Blushing red as anything, Kai ducked his head, to slip under the comforter and shift everything around. Breathe, breathe and don't think about -- ]

M-me too. About sleeping. I mean - sometimes I'm kinda - cuddly but I'll stay on my side.

[ Laying back, he tilted his head to look at Neve. ]

You don't usually have anyone over, do you?

[ neve settled on his back as well, head turned to look at kai. there was plenty of space between them right now, but when his eyes found kai's, it felt like no space at all.

he shook his head. no, he didn't usually have anyone over. and certainly not in his bed. he hadn't shared his sleeping space with anyone in decades. maybe over a century.

he bit his bottom lip, worrying at it with his teeth. ]

It's okay if you... [ he reaches out and tugs at kai's sleeve. he can come closer... if he wants to cuddle, that's okay. ]

[ being surrounded by everything Neve settled over him and made a whole new kind of longing appear to mingle with the one for the sea. With Neve, though, it felt stronger, deeper within his bones.

Looking over at Neve, he could not prevent the fond smile from filling his face. But it turned a little surprised at the tugging.

Really?

Smiling shyly, he scooted over towards Neve on the bed. ]

I haven't -- [ He had never really cuddled with someone he had feelings for. After a few seconds, he curled closer. ] Is this still okay? Am I too close? I might fall asleep.

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