[ Myung, for being a magical being himself, descended from fae, knew very, very little about magic. Mainly, he knew about his own, and about the biggest, most common species. But anything more niche than that, and he was lost.
He was even more lost when it came to lore and history and laws and bonds, because when he opens the door to his tiny apartment, as always wearing his oversized clothes and a beanie on his head to hide his hair, he is just struck dumb by the words that leave the guy's mouth.
Who -- what? Wait. This is the guy he helped out yesterday, picked up his coat. He remembers that, but... ]
Excuse me, what? Husband?
[ Great. Has he helped out a (very cute) psycho stalker? ]
[ lucky for myung or maybe not so lucky depending on how someone looked at it, the smile on his face did not dim one bit at the shock or apprehension. if anything, he expected it and it just gave him the chance to explain more, which he enjoyed having the chance to. not everyone knew about the long lived and proud clan that were the selkie. the current rulers of the seas.
tilting the ring box back and forth, kai offered a wider smile as if it might help win his new husband over. the only downside being he couldn't see well smiling so wide. ]
Allow me to explain some more! I'm a selkie. Do you know about them? I can sense you have some kind of magic but correct me if I'm wrong!
You picked up a pelt, which was mine and looked like a coat. This creates a tether between us and now we are married for as long as we both might live.
[ Myung just... gapes. His hand holds onto the door with a white-knuckle grip, and he blinks a few times in rapid succession, wondering if he's dreaming. Or having a nightmare.
He can't be married. Not even with some kind of weird magic he's never heard about until now, he can't be. It doesn't make sense. Myung's never even been in a relationship! he doesn't do relationship, let alone commitment. To a virtual stranger, who might still be a stalker. A magic stalker.
It's hard to think this guy's a stalker, though. Look at him. Myung swallows hard, before shifting enough to let him through the door. They probably shouldn't have this conversation on his apartment threshold.
Once Kai's through, Myung closes the door, trying very hard to breathe as he looks ahead. Kai can feel free to look around - it's a studio apartment, an upright piano taking most of a wall, a large bed right next to it. Everything else is barely even existent. It's sparse, and tiny, and the acoustics are shit. ]
I don't know - anything - about selkies. But, like. I didn't agree to anything. Doesn't that count for anything? No offense, but I don't even know you. I didn't really have any plans to get married, I'm still a student, I'm not -
[ He clamps his mouth shut, jaw clicking as he tries to think. He can feel the panic rising, and this... is bad... ]
[ to be perfectly honest, kai expected a kind of meltdown, especially with the shock he registered on his newly minted husband. the confession only deepened the expectation and it surprised him when the door opened some more to let him inside.
how nice!
now, he could take in more about his husband because it clearly bothered him very little to be married to a stranger. arranged marriages were common in the selkie and he likely would have gotten a surpreme jerk had it not been for the pelt situation. ]
Actually, had you not wanted me at all, the bond wouldn't have formed. So, you might think you don't want to be married or with someone in such a lasting way but something inside of you does!
[ not very reassuring there, kai. stepping further inside, he ran his hand along the top of the piano. ]
We can take it slow, if you like. Just - let me know when you start ...feeling things.
[ Oh, Myung is feeling things. Mainly, the rising panic in his chest, like a tidal wave, making him suddenly nauseous. He needs to - he needs to - ]
I need to sit down.
[ And so he slides right down to the floor, his back still against the front door of his apartment. Kai can see him clearly, there's no wall to hide him as he brings his knees to his chest and drops his head in between them. For a while, he doesn't say anything, unable to, just trying his best to breath slow and steady.
There are a million questions. But there's also the fact that he can't breathe and his head is full of cotton. And Kai, apparently, is taking it all in stride. He didn't get a choice How fucked up is that? ]
[ the kingdom controlled much of kai's life and he knew better than to try and move past it or go against what the Council instructed. oh, he managed to wiggle around with some things and could not be termed traditional at all but there were certain things he knew better than to mess with.
such as being married and bonded.
while he accepted it being out of his hands, he knew well enough others might not easily find the same comfort. myung seemed to not find any enjoyment with their bond at all. oh no.
concern flashed across his face as he dropped down onto his knees in front of myung and tried to rest his hands lightly on his arms, kind of stroking in what he meant to be a soothing gesture. a bit cautious because he didn't know if myung wanted to be touched. ]
Are you okay? Do I need to kiss you? [ clearly, someone has read about kissing someone to help a panic attack. ] Uh - I mean - being bonded to a selkie, you'll have access to what I'm about - so water, sea life. If you like eating sea animals I'm sorry to say you won't be able to stomach it anymore. And uh I'll feel - whatever your magic is.
[ Myung managed not to flinch at the touch - it was hard, because old habits die hard, but he had to admit that he didn't mind it as much as he usually did. But it could also be because he hadn't had any physical contact with anyone in months, and it made the contact sort of soothing.
Still, though. What.
He doesn't say anything for a while, his eyes closed as he regulates his breathing, gets the trembling of his hands under control. When he finally looks up, it's to give Kai a slightly weird look. ] Kiss me? No, d-don't.
[ A part of him wants to say no yet. But that's not the dominant part of his brain. ] At least buy me dinner first.
[ With a slightly shaky breath, Myung tugs at the beanie over his head, taking it off and exposed his mop of hair, all over the place right now. It's a mix of black, dark blue, and acid green right now, with some streaks of orange and pink thrown in the mix, because Myung is utterly confused by what he's supposed to be feeling.
The colors shift constantly, fading out or getting brighter. ] Sorry to say, but this is it.
[ It isn't, but he's never yet triggered his accelerated healing. He has no clue about that. ]
[ explaining the purpose of his words might help a lot; sometimes a difficulty for kai because his mind tended to go all over the place. thoughts, whirling in and out, scattering everywhere. the light touching continued as he started to explain. ]
I read once kissing can help with panic attacks and anxiety. Something about holding your breath and maybe the distraction if it.
[ he tended to read a lot of things and enjoyed researching random topics. usually, things no one would ever ask or question about on a day to day basis. ]
You want to go to dinner with me? [ please, excuse the eagerness and the slightly wide eyes. he took the words to mean that anyway.
his head tilted to the side as he regarded the hair, watching in awe as it shifted some right before his eyes. whoa! ]
Is this - tied to your - how you feel? What does each color mean? [ also, please, excuse his fingers suddenly in your hair, myung. ]
[ For someone who brought him the most ridiculous, life-altering, crazy news, Kai is, somehow, managing to help Myung calm down. He has no idea how, something about how collected he is, about how certain he seems to be, how there is no doubt on his face or in his voice or anything, makes Myung feel like... it might be okay.
It's really not. But panicking will not help, either. So Myung breathes, and even manages a tiny smile. Because Kai knew what was going on, and didn't freak out, and that might matter to Myung, a bit. ]
Don't kiss me. I'm okay. As for dinner, well. Is this - this bond - can it be undone? Is there anything we can do?
[ Because if not, if they're stuck like this with some kind of magical bond, well. They might as well get to know each other, right?
Myung flushes at the sudden hand in his hair, eyes closing as he tried not to push up into it. ] It is tied to how I feel. And I'm not telling you. You gotta find out for yourself.
[ for the first time since arriving, apprehension filtered onto kai's face and he slowly bit at his bottom lip. what news would myung rather hear? a yes or a no? most likely, the former given it meant things being temporary but, well, he couldn't very well lie.
even if he knew it might help.
with a shake of his head, he started stroking myung's hair idly. ]
As far as I know, it can't be undone. Selkies are tied to the water, the source of all creation and life. It is old, I mean. I could appeal to the deity of the sea but I doubt he would - mess with this.
[ as for the hair situation, he couldn't help a tiny giggle escaping his lips. ] You're sassy. I like you.
And what happens if we decide to pretend it's not happening?
[ He needs to know. He doesn't want to hurt Kai's feelings, that's not the point, but. They don't know each other. ]
Because let me tell you, you'll wish you'd had another... husband... very soon. I'm not - marriage material.
[ Yet, anyway. He doesn't really think he'll ever be, but he wants to be honest, right now. ] I'm very selfish and self-absorbed and I work most of the time. It's goddamn lucky you ever caught me in here at all. I don't know how to take care of myself, let alone a relationship. Sure, I'll take you to dinner, but then my plan would usually be to try and have sex with you and leave before the morning comes.
[ Aka, he is not a good person, Kai. Even as his voice softens, the more you play with his hair. Even if his breaths start being normal again, and his heartbeat calms down.
He smirks, though, cocking an eyebrow. ] Doubt that'll last.
I'll die if you reject me and don't embrace the bond. If I die, you'll never feel whole for the rest of your life. [ probably too matter of a fact tone for such a serious subject but kai kind of resigned himself long ago to no one really wanting him. not in a longterm sense anyway.
he fell silent and listened to the rest of what myung needed to say, nodding his head every now and again to show his attention. ]
If it helps, I've never had a relationship - I won't know what to do either. [ his experience just so happened to be zero, minus a kiss in his youth but that had been on a dare and not very nice at the end of the day. ]
If - it - I can try to see if I can get this broken. I've never heard of that done but .... I'm sorry. [ not at all his fault but he felt the need to apologize. ]
[ Well, shit. Myung is a lot of things, but he's not going to be responsible for Kai dying, thank you very much. Fuck that.
He lets out what sounds like a snarl. ]
No. Fuck that. You're not dying, what the fuck. How is this even okay? Shit, your culture's fucked up.
[ Oh yeah, he swears even more when he's freaked out. Sorry. He frowns, although without any anger, when Kai mentions never having had a relationship, because does he mean it in the same way that Myung does himself? Or does he mean never? ]
But you've had - hookups, right?
[ Myung sighs, shaking his head. ] Don't apologize. It's not your fault. Is there a chance trying to cancel this would work, or would it be effort for nothing? Because if it's the latter, then... it's pointless, and instead, we should. Get to know each other instead, right?
[ the snarl had him wincing a little, eyes widening from the outburst. oh! he never expected myung to care so much and not want anything to happen to him. they didn't know each other after all and it wouldn't be myung's fault when he knew very little of sea culture. arranged marriages were the norm, after all, and never at all for love or affection. likely, kai would have ended up with someone awful.
a smile small filled his face regardless of the atmosphere because he could just tell myung existed outside of the awful category, no matter what he might try to claim.
he could read auras, thank you very much!
hook ups? oh. the grin slid quickly off his face, his head shaking slowly to signify no. ] I - no. I've only - kissed someone....kind of. It was a dare.
[ kind of pathetic, right?
Biting at his thumb nail, he nodded his head this time. ] We should - probably get to know each other.
Myung does look up, a little startled, as Kai says that. So he's a virgin. On top of everything else. Myung married a virgin. Without knowing. That's some responsibility. ]
Oh. And, um. This - this relationship of ours, does it entail. Sex? Is that something you expect?
[ Might as well know now, if it's another thing that will kill Kai, or something like that. Not that it'd be a hardship. Myung keeps looking at Kai. ] Like. What are the rules?
[ Myung can't even help how much he wants to give Kai a proper kiss, right now. Not a bet, not a dare. Because a boy like Kai probably deserves to be kissed right, but.
Well, let's not get ahead of ourselves too much, huh? It's just a passing thought, because Kai is very cute, and so far, despite the circumstances, he's been pretty kind. And he did help calm Myung down. ]
Okay. Tell me more about yourself, then. First few things you can think of.
[ the floor really never opened up to swallow you when you wanted it to, did it? the blush staining his cheeks sent such a heat over his body but he tried to not look or act too fumbling. keep it cool. smooth. had he ever managed smooth in his life? probably not. then again, he had very little practice there.
continuing to bite at his thumb nail, he tried to remember all the 'bonding' lessons they took in the sea. he really should have paid more attention to the intimacy levels of bonding because it would really help right about now. ]
Um. I - do you like it? [ say the word, kai, don't seem like even more of a virgin than you already are. ] Sex, I mean. [ best to not tell him, bonding with a selkie meant he couldn't really sex up anyone else. ]
I might need to confess....I don't know all the details about the bonds yet. [ oops?
as for things about himself, he could handle that much at least. ] I owe a magic shop, I like to sing and dance....I really love unicorns.
[ Does Myung like sex? The question makes Myung chuckle, without thought, because it's such an obvious answer to him. He couldn't lie if he wanted to. ]
Yes. I very much like sex. I. [ Wait. ] Can I still - have it? With other people? Since you're - [ a virgin, oh God, Kai is a virgin. ] - and you might. Not want to? Like.
[ Goddamn, this is getting awkward. ] Don't get me wrong, I'd absolutely have sex with you, but I'm just trying to. Understand what the boundaries are.
[ Oh. Well so much for Kai being able to answer all the questions Myung might have. ] Oh. Okay. Do you know someone who does?
[ Myung licks his lips, fingers toying with his hat, still in his hands instead of on his head. He laughs at the unicorn mention. ] Cute. Um, me, okay. I'm a student, at Juilliard. I want to become a composer, but I'm a pianist too. [ If the piano in the apartment didn't spell that out already. ] I was born and bred in California.
[ it appeared there were going to be more adjustments than he originally anticipated when he realized he had a husband. married. he had gotten himself accidentally married but every selkie wanted to be bonded to someone. he just believed his might be a more romantic occurence.
but when did things ever go according to plan?
back to chewing on his thumb nail, kai shook his head slowly. ] Uh - I don't think you'll be able to have sex with others but I - mean - I might - [ just because he had never indulged in sex before didn't mean he never wanted to!
dropping his thumb from his mouth, he regarded myung for a moment. ] I can ask my guard in the sea. He will be mad I ditched him to get to you.
I - actually wasn't born in the sea, I'm a rare selkie because I have a human parent and a selkie parent but I retained full - sea powers. I'm fully selkie and no one knows how that happened. I should have been a hybrid like all the others.
[ the smile slowly filled his face again. ] Do you want to compose just music or lyrics too?
Am I upsetting you? I'm sorry, if I am. I don't mean to, I just want to know. So, what you're saying is that... I'm going to only want you? For the rest of my life? What if you never want to have sex with me?
[ That seems so, so wild, to him. Not because Kai isn't attractive, because he really, really, but he's never done this before. He's never, never done this before. The monogamy thing.
And now he's apparently to do it, with someone who's practically a stranger. ] Okay. Can I come? Should I come?
I'm a hybrid. My mom's fae, but my dad's human. That's why I don't have much power at all. And, uh... I usually compose classical music. So I also know how to compose lyrics. I'm just not very good at it.
[ kai shook his head so quickly his neck gave a faint pop. ow. groaning, he rubbed at the spot with a faint point on his lips. yowch. ] You're - not upsetting me at all. I know it's important to know. Uh, selkie bonds are pretty strong and I don't think you'll be able to stand touching anyone else - intimately. It'll probably be repulsive to you.
[ as of the other part of that - ] I - I mean....I'll want you. [ he decided to refrain from explaining how the domestic aspect of just marriage alone would get him hot and bothered. it had to be a weird thing anyway.
myung wanted to come with him? the bond worked quick if separation already bothered him, especially just the hint of it. ] You can come with me, don't worry! I can help you breathe underwater, the quicker way is to kiss you but I have a spell that can do it too.
Faes are fascinating and there are so many different types. Same with sea dwellers and if you count shifters there are even more. One of my best friends in the sea is a shark.
[ leaning in to myung just a bit, kai added in - ] Can I hear sometime? You playing I mean! I bet you're really amazing. You seem....passionate.
[ Myung swallowed hard at the words. It was still - so much to take. Not only was he apparently married, but now he only had his own hand as companion, for - fuck knew how long.
And he doesn't know if it's separation anxiety or if he just wanted to have the opportunity to ask his own questions, himself, without a go-between, but. He knew he wanted to go along with Kai. It could be his only chance, after all.
Just to try and find his footing again, Myung attempted a smile. ]
Kiss me, huh? So forward.
[ Maybe Myung should look into his ancestry. But he prefers jumping at the chance at changing the topic entirely, and leans forward a little, motioning for his piano. ] I can play you something now, if you want. My hands are shaking a bit but there's nothing better for me to get my head on straight again, so. I don't mind.
Of course I will! [ kai responded, shaking his head as if it should be a kind of common knowledge. ] You're really attractive. [ the more difficult thing would be not wanting myung at all. he just couldn't imagine such a thing but he knew it would take a little time to go all the way. they needed to learn each other in other ways first. ]
I would kiss you to help give you the temporary ability to breathe underwater! [ he paused. ] Spells take longer but also work. If you'd prefer me to be less forward.
[ more than a little playful at the moment. as for the piano, he nodded his head in eagerness. but the hand shaking had him pausing, reaching out to try and take myung's hands in his own. had myung picked up yet on how touchy feely kai tended to be? ]
Do you want to rest first? Have a snack? The piano playing can happen anytime!
[ Kai sounded so sure. Myung couldn't help the tiny smile on his face. ] Thanks. So are you.
[ Apparently, it was just something he'd have to learn to get used to. Maybe load up his head with images of Kai, because he could guess he was going to use his hand... quite a bit in the next - however long.
He chuckled. ] I know, I was just teasing you. I got what you meant. And I think you deserve to have a proper first kiss. With no bets, no spells, no nothing. Just a kiss.
[ Myung shook his head, pushing up to stand and walk over to the piano. ] No, I'm fine. It'll help.
[ letting out a small giggle, he tried to hide his mouth with his hand for a moment. it made his words muffled. ] If - I could touch you if you wanted. When you want me to. [ if myung wanted to help him, guide him. ]
You want to kiss me? [ it might have surprised him some but he stood up when myung did, moving over to the piano. ]
Have you been playing a long time? I've never tried before.
[ Myung couldn't quite hide the way his cheeks heated up at the words. ] Bond or not, I'm not making you do anything you don't want to do, or that you're not ready for. We can - revisit, maybe, when you're at that point.
[ However, at the next question, he stopped, frowning for a second before his features softened. He pulled Kai's chin up with a finger, for their eyes to meet. ] Why wouldn't I?
[ He'd just told Kai he was hot, and there was the whole thing about, you know, the marriage. Myung had never been one to turn down kisses, and he was going to do so even less now.
He looked over at the piano, not sitting yet but pulling up the fall board, brushing his fingers along the keys. ]
20 years. I started when I was about 3. So, yeah. A while.
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He was even more lost when it came to lore and history and laws and bonds, because when he opens the door to his tiny apartment, as always wearing his oversized clothes and a beanie on his head to hide his hair, he is just struck dumb by the words that leave the guy's mouth.
Who -- what? Wait. This is the guy he helped out yesterday, picked up his coat. He remembers that, but... ]
Excuse me, what? Husband?
[ Great. Has he helped out a (very cute) psycho stalker? ]
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tilting the ring box back and forth, kai offered a wider smile as if it might help win his new husband over. the only downside being he couldn't see well smiling so wide. ]
Allow me to explain some more! I'm a selkie. Do you know about them? I can sense you have some kind of magic but correct me if I'm wrong!
You picked up a pelt, which was mine and looked like a coat. This creates a tether between us and now we are married for as long as we both might live.
[ How chill, right? ]
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He can't be married. Not even with some kind of weird magic he's never heard about until now, he can't be. It doesn't make sense. Myung's never even been in a relationship! he doesn't do relationship, let alone commitment. To a virtual stranger, who might still be a stalker. A magic stalker.
It's hard to think this guy's a stalker, though. Look at him. Myung swallows hard, before shifting enough to let him through the door. They probably shouldn't have this conversation on his apartment threshold.
Once Kai's through, Myung closes the door, trying very hard to breathe as he looks ahead. Kai can feel free to look around - it's a studio apartment, an upright piano taking most of a wall, a large bed right next to it. Everything else is barely even existent. It's sparse, and tiny, and the acoustics are shit. ]
I don't know - anything - about selkies. But, like. I didn't agree to anything. Doesn't that count for anything? No offense, but I don't even know you. I didn't really have any plans to get married, I'm still a student, I'm not -
[ He clamps his mouth shut, jaw clicking as he tries to think. He can feel the panic rising, and this... is bad... ]
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how nice!
now, he could take in more about his husband because it clearly bothered him very little to be married to a stranger. arranged marriages were common in the selkie and he likely would have gotten a surpreme jerk had it not been for the pelt situation. ]
Actually, had you not wanted me at all, the bond wouldn't have formed. So, you might think you don't want to be married or with someone in such a lasting way but something inside of you does!
[ not very reassuring there, kai. stepping further inside, he ran his hand along the top of the piano. ]
We can take it slow, if you like. Just - let me know when you start ...feeling things.
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I need to sit down.
[ And so he slides right down to the floor, his back still against the front door of his apartment. Kai can see him clearly, there's no wall to hide him as he brings his knees to his chest and drops his head in between them. For a while, he doesn't say anything, unable to, just trying his best to breath slow and steady.
There are a million questions. But there's also the fact that he can't breathe and his head is full of cotton. And Kai, apparently, is taking it all in stride. He didn't get a choice How fucked up is that? ]
What kind of f-feelings?
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such as being married and bonded.
while he accepted it being out of his hands, he knew well enough others might not easily find the same comfort. myung seemed to not find any enjoyment with their bond at all. oh no.
concern flashed across his face as he dropped down onto his knees in front of myung and tried to rest his hands lightly on his arms, kind of stroking in what he meant to be a soothing gesture. a bit cautious because he didn't know if myung wanted to be touched. ]
Are you okay? Do I need to kiss you? [ clearly, someone has read about kissing someone to help a panic attack. ] Uh - I mean - being bonded to a selkie, you'll have access to what I'm about - so water, sea life. If you like eating sea animals I'm sorry to say you won't be able to stomach it anymore. And uh I'll feel - whatever your magic is.
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Still, though. What.
He doesn't say anything for a while, his eyes closed as he regulates his breathing, gets the trembling of his hands under control. When he finally looks up, it's to give Kai a slightly weird look. ] Kiss me? No, d-don't.
[ A part of him wants to say no yet. But that's not the dominant part of his brain. ] At least buy me dinner first.
[ With a slightly shaky breath, Myung tugs at the beanie over his head, taking it off and exposed his mop of hair, all over the place right now. It's a mix of black, dark blue, and acid green right now, with some streaks of orange and pink thrown in the mix, because Myung is utterly confused by what he's supposed to be feeling.
The colors shift constantly, fading out or getting brighter. ] Sorry to say, but this is it.
[ It isn't, but he's never yet triggered his accelerated healing. He has no clue about that. ]
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I read once kissing can help with panic attacks and anxiety. Something about holding your breath and maybe the distraction if it.
[ he tended to read a lot of things and enjoyed researching random topics. usually, things no one would ever ask or question about on a day to day basis. ]
You want to go to dinner with me? [ please, excuse the eagerness and the slightly wide eyes. he took the words to mean that anyway.
his head tilted to the side as he regarded the hair, watching in awe as it shifted some right before his eyes. whoa! ]
Is this - tied to your - how you feel? What does each color mean? [ also, please, excuse his fingers suddenly in your hair, myung. ]
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It's really not. But panicking will not help, either. So Myung breathes, and even manages a tiny smile. Because Kai knew what was going on, and didn't freak out, and that might matter to Myung, a bit. ]
Don't kiss me. I'm okay. As for dinner, well. Is this - this bond - can it be undone? Is there anything we can do?
[ Because if not, if they're stuck like this with some kind of magical bond, well. They might as well get to know each other, right?
Myung flushes at the sudden hand in his hair, eyes closing as he tried not to push up into it. ] It is tied to how I feel. And I'm not telling you. You gotta find out for yourself.
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even if he knew it might help.
with a shake of his head, he started stroking myung's hair idly. ]
As far as I know, it can't be undone. Selkies are tied to the water, the source of all creation and life. It is old, I mean. I could appeal to the deity of the sea but I doubt he would - mess with this.
[ as for the hair situation, he couldn't help a tiny giggle escaping his lips. ] You're sassy. I like you.
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[ He needs to know. He doesn't want to hurt Kai's feelings, that's not the point, but. They don't know each other. ]
Because let me tell you, you'll wish you'd had another... husband... very soon. I'm not - marriage material.
[ Yet, anyway. He doesn't really think he'll ever be, but he wants to be honest, right now. ] I'm very selfish and self-absorbed and I work most of the time. It's goddamn lucky you ever caught me in here at all. I don't know how to take care of myself, let alone a relationship. Sure, I'll take you to dinner, but then my plan would usually be to try and have sex with you and leave before the morning comes.
[ Aka, he is not a good person, Kai. Even as his voice softens, the more you play with his hair. Even if his breaths start being normal again, and his heartbeat calms down.
He smirks, though, cocking an eyebrow. ] Doubt that'll last.
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he fell silent and listened to the rest of what myung needed to say, nodding his head every now and again to show his attention. ]
If it helps, I've never had a relationship - I won't know what to do either. [ his experience just so happened to be zero, minus a kiss in his youth but that had been on a dare and not very nice at the end of the day. ]
If - it - I can try to see if I can get this broken. I've never heard of that done but .... I'm sorry. [ not at all his fault but he felt the need to apologize. ]
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He lets out what sounds like a snarl. ]
No. Fuck that. You're not dying, what the fuck. How is this even okay? Shit, your culture's fucked up.
[ Oh yeah, he swears even more when he's freaked out. Sorry. He frowns, although without any anger, when Kai mentions never having had a relationship, because does he mean it in the same way that Myung does himself? Or does he mean never? ]
But you've had - hookups, right?
[ Myung sighs, shaking his head. ] Don't apologize. It's not your fault. Is there a chance trying to cancel this would work, or would it be effort for nothing? Because if it's the latter, then... it's pointless, and instead, we should. Get to know each other instead, right?
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a smile small filled his face regardless of the atmosphere because he could just tell myung existed outside of the awful category, no matter what he might try to claim.
he could read auras, thank you very much!
hook ups? oh. the grin slid quickly off his face, his head shaking slowly to signify no. ] I - no. I've only - kissed someone....kind of. It was a dare.
[ kind of pathetic, right?
Biting at his thumb nail, he nodded his head this time. ] We should - probably get to know each other.
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Myung does look up, a little startled, as Kai says that. So he's a virgin. On top of everything else. Myung married a virgin. Without knowing. That's some responsibility. ]
Oh. And, um. This - this relationship of ours, does it entail. Sex? Is that something you expect?
[ Might as well know now, if it's another thing that will kill Kai, or something like that. Not that it'd be a hardship. Myung keeps looking at Kai. ] Like. What are the rules?
[ Myung can't even help how much he wants to give Kai a proper kiss, right now. Not a bet, not a dare. Because a boy like Kai probably deserves to be kissed right, but.
Well, let's not get ahead of ourselves too much, huh? It's just a passing thought, because Kai is very cute, and so far, despite the circumstances, he's been pretty kind. And he did help calm Myung down. ]
Okay. Tell me more about yourself, then. First few things you can think of.
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continuing to bite at his thumb nail, he tried to remember all the 'bonding' lessons they took in the sea. he really should have paid more attention to the intimacy levels of bonding because it would really help right about now. ]
Um. I - do you like it? [ say the word, kai, don't seem like even more of a virgin than you already are. ] Sex, I mean. [ best to not tell him, bonding with a selkie meant he couldn't really sex up anyone else. ]
I might need to confess....I don't know all the details about the bonds yet. [ oops?
as for things about himself, he could handle that much at least. ] I owe a magic shop, I like to sing and dance....I really love unicorns.
What about you?
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Yes. I very much like sex. I. [ Wait. ] Can I still - have it? With other people? Since you're - [ a virgin, oh God, Kai is a virgin. ] - and you might. Not want to? Like.
[ Goddamn, this is getting awkward. ] Don't get me wrong, I'd absolutely have sex with you, but I'm just trying to. Understand what the boundaries are.
[ Oh. Well so much for Kai being able to answer all the questions Myung might have. ] Oh. Okay. Do you know someone who does?
[ Myung licks his lips, fingers toying with his hat, still in his hands instead of on his head. He laughs at the unicorn mention. ] Cute. Um, me, okay. I'm a student, at Juilliard. I want to become a composer, but I'm a pianist too. [ If the piano in the apartment didn't spell that out already. ] I was born and bred in California.
Were you born in the ocean?
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but when did things ever go according to plan?
back to chewing on his thumb nail, kai shook his head slowly. ] Uh - I don't think you'll be able to have sex with others but I - mean - I might - [ just because he had never indulged in sex before didn't mean he never wanted to!
dropping his thumb from his mouth, he regarded myung for a moment. ] I can ask my guard in the sea. He will be mad I ditched him to get to you.
I - actually wasn't born in the sea, I'm a rare selkie because I have a human parent and a selkie parent but I retained full - sea powers. I'm fully selkie and no one knows how that happened. I should have been a hybrid like all the others.
[ the smile slowly filled his face again. ] Do you want to compose just music or lyrics too?
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[ That seems so, so wild, to him. Not because Kai isn't attractive, because he really, really, but he's never done this before. He's never, never done this before. The monogamy thing.
And now he's apparently to do it, with someone who's practically a stranger. ] Okay. Can I come? Should I come?
[ Apparently, he's already loathe to leave Kai? That's interesting. ]
I'm a hybrid. My mom's fae, but my dad's human. That's why I don't have much power at all. And, uh... I usually compose classical music. So I also know how to compose lyrics. I'm just not very good at it.
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[ as of the other part of that - ] I - I mean....I'll want you. [ he decided to refrain from explaining how the domestic aspect of just marriage alone would get him hot and bothered. it had to be a weird thing anyway.
myung wanted to come with him? the bond worked quick if separation already bothered him, especially just the hint of it. ] You can come with me, don't worry! I can help you breathe underwater, the quicker way is to kiss you but I have a spell that can do it too.
Faes are fascinating and there are so many different types. Same with sea dwellers and if you count shifters there are even more. One of my best friends in the sea is a shark.
[ leaning in to myung just a bit, kai added in - ] Can I hear sometime? You playing I mean! I bet you're really amazing. You seem....passionate.
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[ Myung swallowed hard at the words. It was still - so much to take. Not only was he apparently married, but now he only had his own hand as companion, for - fuck knew how long.
And he doesn't know if it's separation anxiety or if he just wanted to have the opportunity to ask his own questions, himself, without a go-between, but. He knew he wanted to go along with Kai. It could be his only chance, after all.
Just to try and find his footing again, Myung attempted a smile. ]
Kiss me, huh? So forward.
[ Maybe Myung should look into his ancestry. But he prefers jumping at the chance at changing the topic entirely, and leans forward a little, motioning for his piano. ] I can play you something now, if you want. My hands are shaking a bit but there's nothing better for me to get my head on straight again, so. I don't mind.
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I would kiss you to help give you the temporary ability to breathe underwater! [ he paused. ] Spells take longer but also work. If you'd prefer me to be less forward.
[ more than a little playful at the moment. as for the piano, he nodded his head in eagerness. but the hand shaking had him pausing, reaching out to try and take myung's hands in his own. had myung picked up yet on how touchy feely kai tended to be? ]
Do you want to rest first? Have a snack? The piano playing can happen anytime!
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[ Apparently, it was just something he'd have to learn to get used to. Maybe load up his head with images of Kai, because he could guess he was going to use his hand... quite a bit in the next - however long.
He chuckled. ] I know, I was just teasing you. I got what you meant. And I think you deserve to have a proper first kiss. With no bets, no spells, no nothing. Just a kiss.
[ Myung shook his head, pushing up to stand and walk over to the piano. ] No, I'm fine. It'll help.
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You want to kiss me? [ it might have surprised him some but he stood up when myung did, moving over to the piano. ]
Have you been playing a long time? I've never tried before.
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[ However, at the next question, he stopped, frowning for a second before his features softened. He pulled Kai's chin up with a finger, for their eyes to meet. ] Why wouldn't I?
[ He'd just told Kai he was hot, and there was the whole thing about, you know, the marriage. Myung had never been one to turn down kisses, and he was going to do so even less now.
He looked over at the piano, not sitting yet but pulling up the fall board, brushing his fingers along the keys. ]
20 years. I started when I was about 3. So, yeah. A while.
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